Its been a long time since I updated this blog .I've actually got a lot of attempt but I am always busy-fied by my daughter and my mommy duties. As you may know, we have not got any help at home as I prefer taking care of my daughter myself. She is turned eight months last 11th of February and I have never been so content seeing her progress each day.
Anyway, just thought of writing now as I face a new moment in my life. Last Sunday, the preach was about Marriage as a COVENANT of God. Our Pastor discussed a lot of amazing factors and realizations on his eight year marriage. While he was talking about it, I am rethinking how our marriage has been since then. We've been married for ten months and I always thought, since we were living together two years prior to or wedding, that it is all the same. I was so wrong.
Being married with another person is far different than I ever imagined. Being married means I am going to be a person's other half. It means I would have to be the person he sees every morning when he wakes up, forever. And being a wife means no turning back. It means I wold have to be in support with my husband all the days of our lives. And I always thought it was easy and smooth. It wasn't.
For the past months, my husband and I suffers from some major issues that I don't actually know the roots. I have been thinking of what have been the problem with us. Is it financial? Is it my full time focused on my daughter? Is it his lack of sensitivity? Is it his laziness? Is it stress because I feel too ugly, too fat? Or is it just mis communication?
Our Church Pastor talked about the importance of marriage. He talked about how marriage is being compared with that of the relationship of church and the word of God. That it is inseparable. It is indestructible. It is a God-given gift to us. And it is a covenant of the Lord.
Marriage is destiny. God gave my spouse to me. He knows we are both better persons with each other. I am a gift to him as he is a gift to me. A gift so precious that God has handpicked for me. He knows exactly what I need that's why I am given the kind of a person my husband is. Our marriage is a covenant that we have to guard with our lives. To take care and to love. To endure and to be suffered upon if managed wrongly. God has put us together in this covenant and as He said, Wherefore they are no more twain, but one flesh. What therefore God hath joined together, let not man put asunder. -Matthew 19:6
We may have a lot of differences on every aspects of life. But I know my husband was given to me because he is the perfect fit. I may have not appreciate my husband as much as I should have but I want to take this opportunity to honor him. Having me as a wife is not easy. I have been the most unbelievably nagger and irritated partner. I know how many times you would have wanted just to stay out late than to come home as you know I would be yelling and naming you with all the possible bad words you always hear from me. But still you come home to kiss and hug me and understand me over and over again. Thank you honey. I can never be the perfect wife but I promise, from now on to be an wonderful wife as possible. The sweetest if I may add. I love you and I thank God for the gift that you are.
From today, I would consider myself as a gift to my husband. Because I am. A gift that he will not think of being old and dirty but always nice, brand new, surprising and to be cherished forever.
I love you honey and I always will
How about you? Are you still the gift of God in his eyes?
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